I am in the process of becoming an Art Therapist.
I figure if I say this 1000 times, I will wake up one day and feel truly on the path. Honestly, it feels like I'm chasing my tail. Everytime I get pumped up about starting a new project or direction that will build a step for me to climb that art therapy ladder, I either talk myself out of it or the step just crumbles underneath my foot. So I've decided I can't do this alone. I need a support group, a team to cheer me on.
I think we sometimes get in a rut because we feel we have to prove a point to make it on our own. We rationalize that no one person has the time or energy to give us the support we need to acheive our goal so instead of burdening them, we take it upon ourselves to get our weary bodies there. But I'm finding that little saying "There's strength in numbers" to be true.
Its a healing process. To make a goal and actually bring it to life you must climb, sweat, fall, and climb some more. But most of us are not super heroes, like, say for instance, Wolverine. That guy gets slashed and his extra special mutant biological make-up heals his wounds almost immediately. And he's off to fight another bad guy.
We fight, get slashed, we bleed. It hurts... badly. So we dress the wound in haste because who has time to allow it to heal? "I've got criminals to defeat and dinner to cook!" We say "I'm behind schedule! Y'know the one that says 'You're getting older and time waits for no man. All of your friends and colleagues are doing so much better than you. What are you doing with your life? Why can't you get it together? Get off your bum an get moving!!!!'" So I always find myself jumping back out there before its healed or hiding beneath a rock, sulking. Neither of which helps me to get stronger and climb higher. BUT if I had a little help from my friends, maybe we could work together to make it up that enormous mountain called Mt. New Career.
So, I decided to take some time to rest and reflect. Where should I start so I can dress this wound properly? I know! Clean and organize the house. Stop ignoring the pile of mail that's created a mini fort on your mother's piano. Deal with the hurtful chore of opening up the bills and really reading them. Ouch!
I couldn't do it alone but I didn't want to not do it again next year. I needed a little help getting my household in order for the New Year.
It feels as though we've been living in shear chaos, causing wounds to re-open which leads to making the same mistakes. I checked on Craigslist for someone to help with the organization in my home. I found a great lady who doesn't serve my neighborhood at all but who knew someone who does. I emailed Yvette Davis, professional organizer and owner of Clearly Defined Solutions, and before you know it, Yvette was in my living room showing me new systems for my billing process. I was able to implement them immediately! She took a look at my most cluttered areas and began planning for the dirty work she and I would have to do. She also brought over a few calendars that had different ways of imputting dates and important stuff like paying a bill. She listened to me when we did the initial consultation over the phone and right off the back, she knew what calendar was going to work best for me and my family. It was a huge stress taken off my back, and yet it was so simple.
Sure, I could have done that myself. But life can be overwhelming when you have so many things on your plate. And really, its nice to have someone else do the dishes every now and then. I have a long way to go, true. We have some more work to do but getting my house organized is just the beginning. One of my short term goals is to implement systems at home that can be put on auto-pilot so I can go back to school. Balancing a family of four isn't so easy, therefore I've got to get the kids and hubby on board.
After sharing with my husband how and where to put things, like receipts, we decided on a time and day to record and discuss our growth. A time to begin to heal.
I believe the answers are always within you but those answers don't always say you have to turn within to get the help.
Reach out and build.
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